drifting friends.

i feel like i'm drifting away from all my closest friends.
i dont even think i have someone to call my "bestfriend" anymore.

and all my old friends, they aren't as close.
i wonder why. what can i do to fix it ?

who knows. not me.

sprainedankle.

so i sprained my ankle on December 16, 2009.
and it's STILL NOT HEALED.
the doctor said it will probably go for a year,
and that's just horrible news to hear.

i can't do shit with this fucked up ankle.
so sad/mad.

HEAL ALREADY !

insecure.

i dont know why; but i'm reallly really really SUPER insecure these days.
honestly, i feel super shitty next to other people, and feel super ugly.
maybe it's me just noticing it now, or maybe it's all in my head.
but it's getting to me. i dont know what to do.
actually, i do know what to do.
there's just obstacles in my way.
and normally, i'm not this insecure.
and i think part of the reason i'm so insecure
is because of a certain someone.

ughughfmlughugh.

joannkim.

she understands

my pain.

effman.

i dont know what to do !

i see you with her.

and instantly.

i'm jealous.

celineroseesguerra.

your a true friend.
you really care, even if it's only pretend.
you're there for me, even when i'm down
you know how to turn my frown upside down !
your creepy, weird, and very sarcastic.
but you make it so that, the situation isn't so drastic.
i trust you with secrets, i hope you trust me too.
but if you tell a single soul, that's when i'm through with you.
you understand me, unlike alot of people i know.
we talk it through, weather it's fast or slow.
take me to disneyland! you said you would.
i'm sure it'll do me lots of good.
ignore me, y'know, whenever i'm depressed.
i'll probably be like this for a while, but hey, i'm just stressed.
rubegoldberg! this should be fun.
we're partners, we'll work, but we'll get alot more done.
we'll play wii, take pictures, tell jokes, and just bake.
it'll be fun! i already, can't wait.
anyways, yeah. i love that your in my life.
my life would be different, just like a man with no wife.
anyways, theres only one line left to do.
celineroseesguerra, i love you!


what a cheesy last sentence.
OH WELL.

neighbor.

ugh. i hate you.

my mom's bestfriend just HAS to be our neighbor.
and goodness, she is a bitch.

she thinks she knows EVERYTHING.
and just critizes our family on EVERYTHING.
she thinks she's the shit.

ughughugh!

dear mom,
why do you have such a horrible bestfriend?

drumline.

there's only two rehersals left until prelims.
if we make it to finals, then four.

prelims are next saturday, and i'm hoping we do good.
i REALLY REALLY want to make it to finals.
if we don't, i'm not going to feel accomplished in this season.

sigh, it's almost over.
i don't want it to end !
oh well, i guess i'll just have to wait till Ayala now.
go to clinics, try out, and hopefully make it in.

it's almost time to say goodbye.
to Canyon Hills Jr. High Drumline of 2009-2010.

pimples.

stupid. stupid. STUPID.
pimples.

they are tortuing my face and i don't know what to do!
it isn't acne, but i am getting some sort of pimples.

why can't everyone just have good skin.
then we don't have to spend money on all these products !

auggggh.

pho & ramen.

PHO and RAMEN.

two of the most delicious things in the world.
wouldn't you agree?

Someday, Theresa Nguyen is going to make Jilliann Pak and Me some YUMMY pho.

and Jilliann and I are going to make her the most AMAZING ramen.

OH, i also found out that Theresa is cheating on her boyfriend, Kevin Shu.
and with her "girlfriend" Charis Bae.

HAHA. she's all mine now.
OH BABY !

you can't always have what you want.

i beilive this quote.

i think i like you.
but you're unavalible.
so what must i do?
wait, wait, and just keep waiting?

that's too long.
i'll get over you,
time will pass.

& i'll find someone new.